Fighting past writer’s block during a pandemic

Fighting past writer’s block during a pandemic

I’ve had a bit of a writer’s block lately. What do I write about at a time like this? So many thoughts and feelings and ideas, but also self-doubt and worry. It’s as if I feel like whatever I write during this time needs to be insightful and sensitive and powerful. Until I have the perfect blog post, I better not post anything. I realized today that I am putting too much pressure on myself, on this blog, even on my readers. You all don’t need to read something that is perfect, right? You just want to read something.

Today I decided to put aside all of my doubts and hesitations and just write. So here I go….

The last blog post I wrote was about my intentions for this year. The funny thing about writing what you want to do in a year is you don’t really know what other factors will come into play. I obviously could not have predicted a global pandemic. I had no idea I would be on my 6th week of not going into work, and of mostly staying home and not seeing friends. I could not have predicted the complicated set of emotions and struggles and coping mechanisms that would come into play for me during this time. We can never predict anything in life, and life sure does have a way of keeping us guessing!

In my last blog post I talked about how the message I want to focus on and manifest in 2020 is confidence. I started the year off strong in this arena by starting my own podcast! It’s called Vulnerable Views, and you can find it on iTunes, Spotify, SoundCloud, Google Podcasts, and Stitcher. This took a lot of confidence to say “I think my voice is worth sharing. I think I have opinions people need to hear.” Putting myself out there in this way has been so rewarding, and I am so proud of myself for doing this project. But I can’t lie and say this pandemic hasn’t made it harder for me to stay confidence and focused on the podcast. “There’s a pandemic going on, do people really want to hear what I have to say right now?” Thoughts like that infiltrate my mind on almost a daily basis, and similarly I wonder the same thing about this blog. I’m trying to set those negative thoughts aside and continue to create, because it makes me happy.

Finding things that make me happy has been another hurdle to get past during this time of social distancing. I’m learning to appreciate the simple things in life like blasting Taylor swift while driving with my windows down on a sunny day; walking around my neighborhood and being active and connecting with nature; talking with friends on video chat and laughing together; taking a hot bath at the end of a long day; seeing my parents and sister (from 6 feet away). For me, writing and being creative has always made me happy, so continuing to write blog posts and create Instagram content and put out new podcast episodes makes me happy as well, so I want to push myself to continue to be creative during this time.

Although I’ve found ways to stay happy, of course I still have my fair share of struggles and down days and moments of sadness and loneliness and fear. One of the biggest emotions I’ve noticed myself having is guilt. Some people have it so much worse than me. I should be grateful I’m healthy and can still see family and am doing relatively well. But the thing I keep reminding myself over and over again is: Someone else will always have it worse than you. That doesn’t mean you can’t feel sadness and loneliness and hopelessness and anger and fear. You can appreciate what you have, while still mourning what you have lost. The two are not mutually exclusive. Beating yourself up or feeling guilty for not appreciating what you have 24/7, or not being happy all the time, is not productive or helpful to you in any way. I keep reminding myself of this, and I think it has finally started to sink in.

I have so many ideas about topics I want to write about in the future, and I hope I can continue pushing myself to write new blog posts in the midst of this traumatic time we are all experiencing. I hope this blog post finds you well, whoever you are. Thank you for reading this and I will talk to you soon!

April Favorites

April Favorites

As some of you may remember, I wrote an October Favorites blog, and I have not written another since then. I enjoyed writing the last one, so I thought I would kick off May by sharing some of the highlights from last month!

Blog

My favorite blog in April was Girls Actually. Not only because they share great articles that women can relate to, but also because I got the unique opportunity to work with them and write a guest blog! I chose to write about dating in college, so if you’d like to see my take on that topic you can check it out here!

Music

In October I said my favorite music was Pentatonix, and I actually went to their concert last night with my mom and it was a blast! They will always be one of my favorites, but last month, I was obsessed with an artist called Halsey. She has a really great voice and I love her style of music. My favorite song of hers right now is Castle.

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TV Show

My boyfriend got me into the CW show The Flash, and I’ve been surprised by how much I like it! It’s a supernatural/super hero type of show, and normally I go for more drama/comedy, but I have been enjoying it a lot! It has enough humor to make me happy, and the plotlines are really well thought out and fun to watch unravel. I’d definitely recommend it even if you normally prefer different genres.

 Podcast

My favorite podcast for a few months now has been Dear Sugar Radio, which is hosted by Cheryl Strayed (author of the book Wild) and another author named Steve Almond. If you enjoy hearing relationship advice from two very smart, insightful and funny people, then you will love this podcast as much as I do! They read letters from listeners and have guests every episode who they call in to talk about the letters and give an extra perspective.

Memory

My favorite memory of April was definitely visiting some of my college friends. I took two days off from work to drive up to see them, and spent the weekend in my old college town! It was just the boost I needed to get back to the everyday grind of work. I love my job, but everyone needs a break and some extra relaxation every once in a while!

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I hope you enjoyed this blog! Let me know in the comments if I should do these every month, and also let me know some of your “favorites” from April!