Finding my voice: a journey to vulnerability

I’ve always been a private person, which I know may surprise some people considering I have a blog, and have talked about fairly personal things on here in the past. But generally speaking, I have a tough time talking to people about the difficult things that I’ve been through or am currently going through. I also have a hard time sharing the exciting and wonderful things that are happening to me. I just tend to keep a lot to myself and process things internally.

For as long as I can remember, I’ve had to try extra hard to convince myself to share things with people. My earliest memory of this is when I was in second grade, and finally, (after months of her prodding me), admitted to my mom which boy in my class I had a crush on. I can still remember that feeling, of almost sheer panic, as I said his name aloud, as if I was giving away something I could never get back.

Fast forward to my college years, where this pattern continued. I joined a choir my freshman year, and I’m not exaggerating when I say it took me an entire semester to tell any of my friends I was in choir and invite them to one of my shows. About a year later, one of my best friends said to me, “You never tell us anything! I feel like I don’t always know what’s going on with you.” She didn’t say it in a rude or accusatory way, her tone was more of disappointment at the things she was missing out on knowing about me. This has stuck with me all this time, and it’s been a constant reminder for me to try to be better at letting people in.

“It’s very hard to put yourself out there, it’s very hard to be vulnerable, but those people who do that are the dreamers, the thinkers and the creators. They are the magic people of the world.” ― Amy Poehler, Yes Please

Much like my personal life, I think I could stand to open up more with my blog as well. I feel as though you, as my reader, are like college friend, who just wants to truly know me. I want to start letting you in more, to show you the truth of my life, in the hopes that you may be able to relate or at least learn something. I have so many ideas for topics I want to write about, from mental health to relationships, but there’s always a voice in my head telling me “you can’t talk about that. You can’t share that on the Internet!” 

Consider this post my official proclamation that I am going to start ignoring that voice, and start listening to the other voice that’s telling me “Go for it! You have something worth sharing, and people who want to listen.” In the coming weeks and months, expect to learn a lot more about me and the things I believe in. Project Let People In begins….now!

“Vulnerability sounds like truth and feels like courage. Truth and courage aren’t always comfortable, but they’re never weakness.” ― Brené Brown

Do you have a difficult or easy time being vulnerable with people in your life? I’d love to hear from you in the comments!

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Welcome to my blog! My name is Shelly, and I am a 20-something living in Austin, TX. I originally started this blog in 2014 during my semester abroad in Spain, and though I still enjoy writing about my travels, I mostly focus on lifestyle and wellness content. So if you are a 20-something who is looking for a blog you can relate to, this is it!

13 thoughts on “Finding my voice: a journey to vulnerability

  1. Good for you! I guarantee you will experience and discover amazing things the more vulnerable you allow yourself to be. It’s scary as hell, but more rewarding than you can ever imagine. Although, one word of caution- if you are surrounded by people who can’t be vulnerable as well, your vulnerability will scare them. But hopefully, it gives them permission to reciprocate and then magic will happen! Good luck.

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    1. Thanks so much for your comment! That makes a lot of sense, vulnerability can definitely be scary both for the person being vulnerable and sometimes other people if they aren’t the same way. Thanks for the words of wisdom!

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  2. Awesome post! I’m the same way, so I get the challenge. I find that opening up online is easier than opening up in person with people. It’s good practice. haha!

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