Where Have I Been?

I can’t believe it’s been two months since my last blog post! I’ve been wanting to write again for a while now, but I wasn’t sure what to write about and I’ve also been very busy so it’s been easy to make excuses as to why I can’t blog. But here I am, and that’s all that matters!

I think this post will be a bit of a stream of consciousness. I like the idea of just sitting down and writing instead of overthinking what I should write about. So apologies if this is all over the place.

The short answer to where I have been these past two months is: working. I started a brand new job the first week in October after taking some time off from work for about three months. It’s crazy that a month and a half has already gone by at my new job! I’ve been loving it so far, from the work I’m doing to the people I’m surrounded by, to the overall culture of the company. I’m still doing social media marketing, so the work feels familiar, but I’m learning a lot of new things and I’m excited for the opportunities to learn even more and grow in this new position. Overall I’m feeling very hopeful for the future of my career, which is something I couldn’t have said a couple months ago.

The more abstract answer to “where have I been” is: working on myself. As I mentioned in my Life Changes post, I have been through a lot of changes in the past few years. What I didn’t mention is that I have also been through a lot of change in the past few months. Starting around May, things started to shift in my life, and at times I felt really out of control. I felt like everything was happening to me, and I will admit I probably played the victim a bit. I kept wondering why. Why was I forced to leave my job? Why did my relationship have to end? So many things happened over the summer and into early fall, and I won’t lie, it was really difficult for me.

I felt like I had two choices: I could either use this time as a growing experience, and try to learn more about myself and figure out how to be happy, or I could wallow in my misfortunes and give up. As you might be able to guess, I chose to be happy. I found my new job, which I feel so lucky to have been offered. I started spending more time with friends and family. And I started working harder by myself and in therapy to become a better version of me.

I wish I could say I had some kind of huge epiphany, or that I have some sage wisdom to share with you about what has changed in these past couple months to make me a happier person, but I don’t. All I know is that I am feeling really confident in who I am right now, and I’m feeling really happy with where my life is. Of course I still get sad and angry and scared like everyone else, but overall I feel that right now I am in a better place than I have been this entire year.

So with that said, I am making a commitment to improve myself even more, by doing things that make me happy. I’ve been working and spending a lot of time with friends, but as a result I have let some of my hobbies and passions fall to the side. I haven’t been blogging, and I haven’t been exercising as much as I’d like to. So I guess I’m using this blog post as a way to promise myself I will try harder to do those things more often. This blog post is a good start, and I am heading over to do some yoga with my mom after this!

Like I said at the beginning, this post was more of a stream of consciousness than anything, so bravo if you’re still with me. Thank you for taking the time to read this. I’d love if you would leave me a comment and let me know where you’ve been lately, however you’d like to interpret that question.

6 thoughts on “Where Have I Been?

  1. Hi sweet Shelly, as I read your blog I was reminded of similarities in our lives. Yes, Al and I broke up after dating 7 years. I was sad but he wanted us to be friends and we speak frequently over the phone. Long distance dating wasn’t working. Another stressful 2 days with my son (your Dad) left me feeling anxious about my home life and how I’m covered with boxes. Purchased a newly built home and I’m not a decorator by any stretch of my imagination. Where to hang art, etc. Steve drove a uhaul van to bring my stuff from storage. Don’t laugh, but we ended the visit by taking stuff to Goodwill. He insisted on putting a box in the back of my car for future trips. This is more than I intended to say, but I need to work on my 76 yr old self with severe A.D.D. Just give your Dad a hug from me and tell him my BETA Fish will be my only pet. I love you, Nana

    1. Thanks, Nana! I’m sure you will get your new house all decorated and unpacked before you know it. I’m hoping to come up and visit you soon! I love you!

  2. Your new job sounds like a great start you needed. 🙂 I just started at my new workplace 5 months ago, and although I still have a long way to go to my goal of eventually becoming a psychologist, I really enjoy where I am now.

    1. Thank you! And that’s great to hear. I’m glad you’re liking your new job and I’m sure you’ll reach your goal! Thanks for your comment! 🙂

  3. I’m so right there with you. Change is hard. Sometimes it is the breakthrough we really need tho. I’m going thru something difficult where it forces me to make decisions and I’m just scared of which way I’ll go. I have faith that all will unfold as it should. Hang in there and enjoy the ride. Bask in all that you have accomplished. Thanks for the honesty.

    1. Sorry to hear you’re going through a hard time, but you’re so right. I really think everything happens for a reason and it will all work out for the best! Thanks so much for your comment. 🙂

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